17 weeks and counting

ultrasound at 15w4d (she gave me a picture of the face, I don't love it but it's all I've got!)

17 weeks

On the positive side of things I compared this picture to me at 18 weeks with Siena and it's almost the exact same, so I'm not getting humongous yet!! (I realize that yet is the key word)! I was anticipating growing much quicker this time, but it has not worked that way! I am officially 17w4d and had a Dr.'s appt today! I am pleased to announce that my vomiting has slowed down! I am now only throwing up about twice a day! This is heavenly compared to the constant I was feeling a few weeks ago! I have been bleeding on and off throughout this whole pregnancy, and I talked to my Dr. about that today. He explained to me that the reason is my placenta is growing too close to my cervix and the pressure is causing the bleeding! This is also known as placenta previa! There is a chance that it will go away still between now and delivery, and there is a chance that it will stay for the remainder of the pregnancy. From what I've read most likely if it stays I will start bleeding at some point in the third trimester and have an emergency c-section that day. Best case scenario if it stays is that I will have a beautiful routine scheduled c-section at 37 weeks!! Worst case scenario includes blood transfusions and possible hysterectomy, but I am choosing to completely ignore that as an even possible option!! I am just realizing that my body wants to insure that I will have another c-section!! (the thought of this makes me want to curl up in a ball and start crying already)!! I have an ultrasound scheduled for 2 weeks from today (and we will find out the gender!!!!) to look at my placenta again. If the placenta previa continues I will go on bed rest at some point!! Heaven help me and this pregnancy! I left the Dr. wanting to cry today! I really want more than 2 children but appt's like this and crap like placenta previa make me question that!!! Maybe I will just have to enjoy the two that I am going to get!! I am feeling really blue these days, and just can't wait for this pregnancy to be over!! WAY TOO MUCH STRESS!! I will update more as this horrible pregnancy continues, and maybe at some point my piece of crap body will start working like a normal woman's body should!! Until next time, I'm trying to remember the really bad chocolate cake is still good........

Second trimester

I read an article this week about the beauties of the second trimester!! I think the author was out to get me! Reason #1 the second trimester is amazing according to her is no nausea!! If we are speaking in person about my nausea I smile and laugh about the fact that I still throw up at least 2-3 times a day! I really find no humor in this concept and think
Really nasty thoughts when people tell me they haven't thrown up once their whole pregnancy!! Reason # 2 according to her is beautiful skin! Maybe my body missed this memo because I have so many zits on my face I think I hit puberty again! #3 the return of energy! I guess she's counting barely being able to get out of bed as energy return! I'm still tired at 10:30am even if I got out of bed at 9!! And #4 apparently most people don't have to pee as much during these weeks! I have decided that their babies have decided to move up their abdomen a little and not use their bladders as a punching bag! Mine on the otherhand thinks my bladder is the perfect play thing! Now that I've complained for ten minutes I heard an analogy this week that works for me most days! This pregnancy for me is feeling like a price of chocolate cake that is not very good! It's hard and burnt but regardless it's still chocolate cake and always delicious! Thats how I feel this pregnancy has been so hard for me! My body feels like it's been taken over by aliens but in the end I'm still pregnant and that's amazing regardless of my circumstances!! I am thrilled to be carrying another baby! I just wish I could get some relief!
On good news though I had an ultrasound on Monday and baby looks good! Apparently my spotting is nothing! I am having some pretty intense pain that I'm going to talk to the dr about on august 8 but I think it's just round ligament pain! Other than that I am eager to know if it's a boy or girl and at this Monday ultrasound he/she wouldn't open it's legs! And my nausea has calmed a little and I have a new aid to help! Peppermint oil has saved my life!!

Seriously...

I tell you this pregnancy is causing me serious anger!! I went to the bathroom at church today and had "the dreaded wipe" as I've heard it referred too, I'm spotting again, it's only when I wipe and it's a little bit of blood but that's about what it was when I went in for the tear in my placenta, I'm going to call the dr. In the morning but tonight I'm just feeling angry!! Seriously, anytime I feel like things are comfortable I get another knife in the back!! Let's keep our fingers crossed and some serious prayers in our direction!! Hopefully the dr. Tells me there's nothing to worry about tomorrow!!

13 week appt

I had my 13 week appt on friday and I had no bad news! This is pretty monumental for this pregnancy! The heartbeat was strong, my uterus is where it's supposed to be, and the dr. Assures me the baby is measuring perfect! I am gaining way more weight this time and I don't love that but I keep trying to remind myself that I was forced to do nothing for 2 weeks and I am typically pretty active!! This is just a really bad excuse but i'm working on eating healthy and getting more activity in my day!! (though it's hard when you'd rather be throwing up)!!! I felt a little flutter last night which was incredible! This is when pregnancy starts to get real for me. After my miscarriages I find myself staying pretty disconnected until movement starts. I can't wait to feel more! 13 weeks has brought no relief of my nausea and no energy return. Let's hope for magic 14th week! My belly popped over the weekend and even Scott now acknowledges that I look pregnant which was way more exciting with Siena!! The only bummer news I got this week is that my travel is still restricted! No traveling outside of southern California for me until after this sweet baby arrives! I go back on august 8 and I'll be able to schedule the 20 week ultrasound to find out whether this monkey Is a prince or a princess! We can't wait

Ultrasound results

Well, the results are back and I no longer have a tear in my placenta! I am so excited!! The dr has removed all my restrictions and I am happily sweeping, mopping, and taking my awesome daughter to the park! I go back next Friday for my regular checkup!
In other news the nausea has not gone away and unless I have zofran in my system I don't keep my food down! I also don't feel like my energy is back yet either, but hopefully that comes with the next week! We have officially realized that with the ending of my first trimester that means we are most likely going to be bringing a baby home in 6 months. Though I am truly ecstatic, this realization also comes with some serious fear! Hopefully my nerves will go away... I do have 28 (well technically 27 since my c-section will be scheduled a week early) weeks to cope with my nerves!!!

Progesterone

Well, I am officially done with my progesterone and I am more than thrilled! Though some parts of me are really nervous too! I had to stay on it until 16 weeks with Siena so I am nervous that he's having me go off it early. He told me that by 11 weeks your placenta is making the progesterone so I should be fine, let's hope he's right. Progesterone accentuates all your symptoms so I'm hoping to have some relief from the nausea and crankiness. Did you know progesterone is what makes women have pms every month? And I'm on 3x the amount most pregnant women have... I hope to be normal again after today! Plus it makes everything swell so my stomach looks like I'm 20 weeks pregnant rather than 11 so I'm hoping for a normal sized baby bump in the very near future! I have an ultrasound tomorrow... Cross your fingers

Test results

Well, Scott talked to my dr. On Friday and all my blood tests came back normal. I was relieved since I had been so sick but the pain is still pretty intense! Then Saturday night I went to bed without taking one of my medications and the next morning almost all of my symptoms were gone! The light headedness, the heavy head thing, pretty much everything but the throwing up blood and the pain! I was so happy to know what the problem is and to get some energy back! I threw up blood again last night when Scott was home and he said that it's not too much so he wouldn't worry!! Yay for feeling some comfort finally! I go in Friday for another ultrasound! Cross our fingers everything looks good!