Let's clear something up here....

So a friend of mine pointed out that when I talk to you in person I down play my struggles with this pregnancy, but when I write on here it sounds as if I'm going die... i want to clarify now! I am seriously doing fine! Nausea sucks, but I'm only feeling nauseated part of the day now and I don't even throw up every day!! Thanks heavens for that! The contractions aren't uncomfortable at this point just surprising, and the bleeding scares me but is easy to deal with! I am truly doing fine! Do I feel the best I've ever felt in my life? NO but I dare say that if a pregnant woman tells you she is feeling better than ever, she's LYING!! I am really blue this pregnancy, but nothing that I can't deal with easily! All in all; I am alive, I am thrilled to be pregnant with another baby girl, and I feel decent! I am fine to go out with my husband and friends, happy to watch kids, love to clean my house, and I am finally starting the process of nesting!! Watch out house, you are about to get a total makeover from my pregnant little hands!!
I hope this clears up my venting from the past! I have struggled but I have certainly made it sound worse on here than it really is!! We are enjoying life and eager to welcome baby #2 to our home!!

17 weeks and counting

ultrasound at 15w4d (she gave me a picture of the face, I don't love it but it's all I've got!)

17 weeks

On the positive side of things I compared this picture to me at 18 weeks with Siena and it's almost the exact same, so I'm not getting humongous yet!! (I realize that yet is the key word)! I was anticipating growing much quicker this time, but it has not worked that way! I am officially 17w4d and had a Dr.'s appt today! I am pleased to announce that my vomiting has slowed down! I am now only throwing up about twice a day! This is heavenly compared to the constant I was feeling a few weeks ago! I have been bleeding on and off throughout this whole pregnancy, and I talked to my Dr. about that today. He explained to me that the reason is my placenta is growing too close to my cervix and the pressure is causing the bleeding! This is also known as placenta previa! There is a chance that it will go away still between now and delivery, and there is a chance that it will stay for the remainder of the pregnancy. From what I've read most likely if it stays I will start bleeding at some point in the third trimester and have an emergency c-section that day. Best case scenario if it stays is that I will have a beautiful routine scheduled c-section at 37 weeks!! Worst case scenario includes blood transfusions and possible hysterectomy, but I am choosing to completely ignore that as an even possible option!! I am just realizing that my body wants to insure that I will have another c-section!! (the thought of this makes me want to curl up in a ball and start crying already)!! I have an ultrasound scheduled for 2 weeks from today (and we will find out the gender!!!!) to look at my placenta again. If the placenta previa continues I will go on bed rest at some point!! Heaven help me and this pregnancy! I left the Dr. wanting to cry today! I really want more than 2 children but appt's like this and crap like placenta previa make me question that!!! Maybe I will just have to enjoy the two that I am going to get!! I am feeling really blue these days, and just can't wait for this pregnancy to be over!! WAY TOO MUCH STRESS!! I will update more as this horrible pregnancy continues, and maybe at some point my piece of crap body will start working like a normal woman's body should!! Until next time, I'm trying to remember the really bad chocolate cake is still good........